No fun

The whole drinking thing has gotten out of hand. It isn't fun. IT ISN'T FUN ANYMORE! It doesn't make me feel good.  I don't enjoy it at all. Why do I want it, still? Blogging has to save me. I have to save me.  

Day 1

I got myself into this mess and I am getting myself out. No outside help. Just me fixing me. I HATE alcohol and what it has done to my life.  It's wrecked my body, my brain, my family, my self respect.  I have to do this or I will lose everything.